Manifestation Ideation

We Remember One. Welcome to another episode of Scary Stories We Tell. I am your host Kristas, and I am joined once again by my good friend, the host of the Strange Beliefs podcast, still number one in my heart, keeping it real on this podcast for the Strange Beliefs podcast, my good friend all the way from somewhere New Jersey, all the way from Jersey, Emma, the host of the Strange Believes Podcast. I like that. It was really sweet for a second there, I'm keeping it real.

I like your podcast. I wouldn't have reached out to you if I didn't like your podcast. It wasn't just like her pick some people out of a grad bag. I mean, I'd like to think, after the good amount of episodes we recorded, and also the amount of hours we have talked, that you feel pretty good about me at this point. Yeah.

And the amount of text messages shared yes, yeah, yeah. I don't think I could safely say I think we're friends. Yeah, something like that. Yeah. And on this episode, well, I don't know what we're talking about.

On this episode, Emma wanted to talk about something that I don't I don't think genuinely, I have no idea. So Emma I will turn the floor over to you. I'm gonna I'm gonna start a little further back, a little recap. I know we've talked about man infestation on here before. Right at the time, I was getting, you know, dipping my toes in the water of that realm of spirituality, not quite witchcraft per se, not necessarily casting spells, but definitely into uh, working with crystals and tarot and generally whatever you hear with high vibration.

That's that's really the general realm of what I've been delving into, mainly originally out of curiosity. The more I've been doing it, I will say, the more convinced I have become, uh, from what I'm going to tell you, from where I'm at right now. I will preface this with saying I went from like twenty five percent believing in this stuff, like on the fence, but like both legs over onto skepticism side. I like when we did the original episode, Yeah, okay, yeah, so that I was like, when when was that? It was at least a solid a few months ago.

Okay, But we're talking like, just audience member, if you didn't listen to the Manifestation episode, go back and listen to it, because this is clearly see how I've changed this. Yeah, and I wanted, I really wanted to give an update because for me, this has been a big experiment what I loved doing when I was doing Strange Beliefs, which we're on an indefinite hiatus for those of you that are wondering. But what Strange Beliefs was about to me was talking with my very good friend Arthur, who does do witchcraft and has had all of these crazy strange experiences that I never had, and just trying to get to the bottom of it. And like it's one of those things that I felt so far removed from that I felt like I could never understand and I just had to interview people and try to get like a scope of what it entailed because it just it felt so far fetched to me.

And I've always been a very open minded skeptic. I always leaned very like whatever science says, like, that's that's it. I I can't really see myself putting stock into much else than that, Like, you believe what you want to believe. I'm totally down for that. But like for me personally, like that's always been who I've been with all of the stuff, even when I started strange beliefs up until we recorded our last episode, Like I and I believe every word that my friend said, and I say, I said this a million times on our podcast.

I believed every word that came out of his mouth. I know he would never lie to me, Like everything that he had said, I knew for a fact he experienced. It was just what did what actually caused those experiences? Was it psychological? Was a spiritual?

Was it ghosts? Was it Jesus? I don't fucking know right right? Sure, sure so, And That's where I've been. But then I decided that I wanted to start trying some stuff, And the reason for that was mainly because partially a like hypothesis of like, there's a lot of people that put a lot of stock into this, right, what is the harm?

Because there are people out there like creating the lives of their dreams. Why should I be sleeping on this? If this is legit can't hurt. And I've been sort of telling people that, like it's just it's really good for self reflection and it's helped me meditate more, which is true, and it's let me get away with not sounding crazy to certain people. My father, Emma, Emma, you ound you and like seeing all of my Etsy packages of crystals and he's like, why are you buying this?

You're not He literally said to me, You're not, like you don't believe in that stuff? Right? No, no, no, I mean here's not. I mean here's the thing though, like with what you're talking about, like is our manifestations? How was like how was that any worse than I mean, it's not worse, but like it's way better.

Manifestations are a better use of your time and effort than like, you know, being a boss babe and a MLM multi level marketing. I agree with that, But that's like, but like you're literally like kind of saying the same things that they like talk about, like you know, I'm good like feeling good about yourself, like ye self reflection, creating the life that you've always wanted. Like that's like that shit is like it is that it is bade adjacent. Yeah, but it's like but again, like you said, like how can this hurt? Well?

This came well oh, and I mean, like, don't get me wrong, I'm saying I do also want to preface this with saying like if you put like all of your stock into this without doing the work behind it, nothing is going to happen. So take that for what you will. I don't want anybody to be like, well, if I just sit in a corner and I think nice thoughts for the rest of like, then everything will go my way. That's not it. But I'll do what you're saying, and that's not what anyone else is saying either.

Now however, Boss babes, Yeah, well they promised that if you join, if you join Lula Roux, you will become a millionaire in one year. And it's like three pillars gas like gate keep girl boss. Yeah, yeah, I'm now interested in this brand new no get away from me, God, no free makeup tutorial. That's what they would always always offer my wife, you want to make up, I'll do your makeover for you, and it's like this is this is there's something behind this is not free god? But um but yeah, So recapping a little bit what I left off in the last episode, Uh was Taro and crystals.

I think that was really like the majority of it. What I was doing with Taro, I was doing readings for myself. I was doing readings for others, and it seemed that I had more or less accuracy. I did readings for people I had met that day using what I can only assume to be intuition, which can also be interpreted as talking out of my ass based on cards that fall like, I want people to be able to interpret this the way that makes the most sense to them. When I say intuition, I mean I talked out of my ass.

However, where did those thoughts come from? That's the question. Was it beamed to me from my higher self or was it pulled from my subconscious? Was it a combinations? And that's a lot of what I tried to get into on my other podcast.

But so I was doing a lot of terror, and I was doing what is referred to as crystal work, which is basically, you get certain crystals that have certain meanings and you charge them. There are a couple ways to charge. I talked about that, and then you program them with your intention what you want to get out of them. You know, if you have an adventuring crystal that's mostly associated with luck, and you could program it like I bring luck and good fortune into my life, and you meditate on that and you hold that crystal and that is how you can bring and align yourself, I guess with that intention. So that was what crystal work was all about, and that was really fun.

Also I got to buy pretty rocks. I'm down for that, and now I have a bunch of pretty rocks, and I think more than anything, I came out of a lot of this with a lot of really pretty items. All my tarot decks are fucking gorgeous at pretty rocks. Now, yeah, like a pretty necklace with them if you really wanted, right, I mean, I lost nothing by doing this. However, if you don't have the money to spend on tarot and crystals, then there's more to lose.

But point is is that that's really where I left off, and I was doing pretty well with that. Like I said, taro was going pretty well. I wound up getting an oracle deck along with my tarot deck. I now actually have a third deck, which is also an oracle deck, which I will be showing off later to Chris because it is gorgeous. It's called the Seed and Sickle got off Amazon.

But oh my god, just Chris, this box. It is beautiful. I'll have to I'll show you some pictures but like, oh my god, it's everybody who's listening is like, this is stupid. I can't see anything. Is that a visual medium?

For those that are curious? Amazon Seed and Sickle Original Emma also is a loyal Amazon Prime member and I bury Amazon, but I am here to sell you good. For those that are curious, it is by fez inc right, which I can only assume is a pen name. I don't know. Right felt like a real person to me, but no, it's a gorgeous deck.

But moving on from that, so yeah, like I said, that's basically where we left off last time. Since then, I would say my biggest hurdle has been career wise. Uh, something that I've been struggling that I've been trying to manifest via Crystal is getting more work, but I haven't really had like a lot of the motivation behind it. And I you know, I was doing a couple applications here and et cetera, and things just I didn't feel like they were really going my way. Everything felt really stagnant.

And then every like ten days, my dad would be in my ear, like how many applications have you done this week? Have you reached out to those companies I told you about. Have you sent those emails that we drafted together? And I was sitting in this feeling of like, why can't I just do this? Why is this so hard?

I'm sure a lot of our listeners can understand executive dysfunctions that comes from anxiety depression ADHD. A lot of us, mental health wise, can understand why it's so hard to do something that seems on the outside very simple. But I had obviously I had mental blocks about it. But I started trying to pull myself together and I was like, I'm going to try again. I'm really going to do this.

I'm really going to start applying and it's gonna be okay, and I'm going to figure this out. I've realized that, like, they're the job that I was originally that I went to school four, which was industrial design, I hadn't been applying to any industrial design jobs. I had to do a whole soul search about why I wasn't applying to industrial design jobs. I learned how to do a lot with like self worth, etc. That's a whole mental health can a worms that we don't need to go into.

However, there was a lot of blockages and so what I decided to do. I decided to just start applying and I found like one application, like one job that looked incredible, and I sat down and I was like, I'm going to lean into spirituality here. If the universe is at my back, then they'll help me get this job. So I look up like best ways to manifest something, manifestation methods, etc. Aside from what I was already doing, and I came across this one method called like the three six nine method, which is basically you take a notebook and then you write, so you basically it's three different sentences.

So for the first sentence, write three times, and that's basically like a blanket statement of what you're trying to manifest. So for this very specific job that I wanted, so I have write notebook right here, I won't say the name of the company, but hired by Blink was basically like hired by Blink company. So I wrote that three times, and then the next sentence you're supposed to write six times, which is more so of like what exactly you want out of this? So I said, you know, Blink company hires me with twenty five dollars offer, I'm looking for part time jobs. I just want something, and that's what they were advertising, was like their high end.

So I was like twenty five dollars an hour, that would be incredible. Wrote that six times, and then you're supposed to write basically a gratitude statement as if you already have received the thing, and you're supposed to write that nine times. So for that I started writing like I am grateful to be working at Blink Company, and eventually I see that I changed it to I'm grateful and deserving to be working at Blink Company. Some people say that they do this at three different intervals in the day, so they'll write the first three sentences in the morning, the six sentences in the afternoon, the nine sentences as night. I've seen something.

There's a lot of different ways to do it. I did it all at once, and they say that you need to be doing this for like at least twenty one days to see like anything. So the general idea of how this is actually supposed to help you is that it's supposed to help align you with what you want. The idea of this repetition and writing the same like you know, if you were told like studying like oh, just like write your notes a million times and it's the same. It's literally the same principle, right exactly.

But you know, there's symbolism behind the numbers and et cetera, but basically it's journaling. It's a form of journaling manifestation. So I tried that and I did that for god, how many days did I do that? That would be one, two, three, four or five six seven? I dated them too, U nine, ten and I stopped at ten.

Yeah, I stopped at ten. So this is then what happened. And I'm really trying to put myself out there for this opportunity, but I think I suffered from this like eggs all in one basket mentality. I only like, once I knew that this was the opportunity I wanted, I was really just mentally focusing on this one thing because I thought that was what was going to get me there. Um.

And then I heard via social media that the month of March when we're recording this, there was going to be a full moon in Virgo, And you know full moon obviously every month there is a full moon and it is in a different sign. This one just happened to be in Virgo. And I got curious. I was like, I wonder what that represents for me personally. I actually found this very nif D chart that says, like all of you're supposed to apply your rising sign.

I think we talked about zodiac stuff in a previous episode, but basically, your big three is your son, your moon, you're rising. Their calculators, it has to do with the time that you were born and the location of which you were born. Your son's sign is the sign that's based on where you are in you know, the month. So like I'm you know, I was born in March, late March, so my sign is Aris. That's my son's sign, and then based on some other stuff, but basically my rising sign is Sagittarius.

So I'm reading this and it says apply your rising sign for Sagittarius. It rules the tenth house, goals, career, public image, and success. And I went that seems moderately serendipitous. And I also, at the same time, my boyfriend is trying to move out. He's been struggling with this, like you know, complex about getting an apartment, feeling like he might not have enough to do it.

I'm sure a lot of us have been there and for him, his rising sign is Gemini, which in the full moon, and Virgo rules the fourth house, and that is foundation, family and home. Also pretty serendipitous. So what I decided to do on the night of the full moon, which was a Friday night, and this was the eighteenth we're recording about ten days later, A lot of stuff has happened in a short amount of time. I basically decided to have a full full moon taro spread for myself. So I waited until like midnight.

Time of day doesn't really matter, it's just when I finally, like at night, had a chance, took out all three of my decks and I lit a candle. I had some of my crystals, and I was just like, all right, Universe, talk to me. Tell me what I'm doing, What am I doing right? When am I doing wrong? What should I be doing more of etc.

I did a full reading for myself. I based it. There's a couple of different spreads that you can do. I followed in my new deck. That part doesn't super matter, but basically I did a full reading, and something that I struggle with when I do reading, so that I forget to write stuff down and I have a terrible memory.

So I used this notebook and I'm like, I'm going to write down all my insights. I'm going to have it so I can review it later. I'm not going to forget anything. It's gonna be fine. So insights that I gathered from this spread for myself.

Apparently I have a lot of toxic emotions regarding money and timing. I could blame my dad for that, for whispering in my ear consistently making me very stressed out about the situation. It's very hard to be positive about getting a new job or looking for a job when all you're hearing is like, so, why haven't you done it yet? Why haven't you done it yet? You know, although people there's a lot of graduates out there right now, they're the ones going to be getting jobs, and it's just like, it's really hard to feel positive.

Right. Oh yeah, so that track that made sense. They think they're helping, but they're not. I've tried to explain that one to him. It doesn't really doesn't really stick, you know, it is what it is.

Unfortunately, it's a it's a way in style of motivating that neither one of us seem to be too fond of. But I will tell you, and you probably know this, there are plenty of people that that's like what they need, Oh for surebody to just like breathe down their nick definitely. And you know, here's the thing, and I want to preface this as well, like, yes, I had a lot of toxic emotions and I have a lot of toxic emotions that I'm working through because of that environment. But obviously, at the end of the day, all I can control is me and how I internalize it. So that is what Since I can't obviously stop what he's doing.

I had attempted communication that didn't really work. All I can do is try to change how I view all of this. So that's one thing that I started working on. Another thing I gathered is that I've been all talking no act. Wow, who would have guessed I wrote stuff down like I'm paralyzed by fear and uncertainty.

The time for action is now. And again, all of these were insights based off of the cards that I pulled, based off of, you know, the meanings that they have and their little booklets that they come with, and the insights that I was able to gather from it. Other stuff a new professional relationship is around the corner, but the universe is testing me. Good things will come if I take action. I can do this by honoring my past and living the present to the fullest.

When it says honoring my past. The issue that I've had quite a bit is, you know, dealing with rejection, career rejection in the past, and I very often reference it as something that's been blocking me. And my cards were telling me in that moment, it's not a bad thing that you have that past, but you cannot let that control you. Don't forget it. Don't forget what happened.

You can still honor that, but that shouldn't be what's holding you back in the present. Things continued like, don't overthink the little things. Let my hard work take me where I need to go. One thing I wrote down is that I finally drew a card in my tarot deck called the Morning card. So I have the Cosmic Slumber Tarot, and there are two extra cards in the back of the booklet that it says one is called the Morning, one is called the Night.

And I've gotten the Night card so many times, which is basically like when everybody else sleeps, you will work the nighttime. You will use the time to the fullest and you will use this time to work. The Morning Card, however, was talking about it's a new day, new opportunities. I had never gotten the Morning Card before, like ever, and so that was weird for me. So that was like a whole thing.

But basically I asked about my future, like what is down the line if I'm able to implement all of this, and basically things that I'd gotten from that was I have to keep an eye out for my spirit guides. So that was something I've been looking into. They are here and protecting me. The world is responding to my manifestations. Ignore naysayers, and the time to start over is now.

Move forward and embrace it. Other things like trust in my spirit guides, be flexible, receive their help, prepare for the unknown. And that's a big thing when it comes to spirit guides and manifestations as a whole, is that a lot of people believe that the universe holds things back from you if it thinks that you are not ready. So that opportunity that you've been waiting for, if the universe doesn't think you're mentally ready to be your best self, when you have that opportunity, then you're not going to get it until you are in a good place. And then the last thing I wrote down is in order to make progress, I have to confront negativity and find the root cause of the struggle.

And that was basically the big reading for me. I will touch on one thing because I did do a second reading for my boyfriend for his issue, and just one little thing that was like super crazy and uncanny to me. I'm shuffling cards the scene and sickle Deck has two booklets. You can read cards in two ways. You can read it as a dawn reading or as a dusk reading.

Dawn has to do with like goals and moving forward, and Dusk has to do more with like emotions in a world, that kind of stuff. And so I was reading it all as a dawn reading and then I shuffle cards, and I remembered reading in the book that if a card comes out reversed, it means that you should probably look at the other booklets. So if you're reading, if you were reading dusk, a card comes out reverse, you should read it in dawn. So I'm reading a whole dawn reading, and the one card that comes out reverse, and this was so I had to take a picture of this because this was so uncanny to me. It was the Dandelion.

I'm going to read this little excerpt to you. So I take out the Dusk book for the Dandelion, and it says, all that hard work to bloom is over. Things have finally settled down, and you've just about caught your breath. But fate has a different plan for you. There's an unexpected wind on the horizon waiting to sweep you up and upend everything you've put in place.

The urge may arise to fight it, but how about surrendering to chaos for once and letting it blow you onto a different path. You might find that things look clearer upside down. It was the only card in the entire reading, in all the card I pulled like thirty cards for myself, Like one card the entire night came out reversed and the book said upside down. And that was like it was late and like that to me was just like Okay, that's pretty cool, I guess, And so I took that for what it was worth. I wound up sharing insights with my boyfriend as well.

I'm not going to get into that because that's more for him. But but that was the big thing. I took the weekend to meditate on it, to think about it, and then the following Monday change of heart, I felt reinvigorated and I decided that I was going to continue doing my journaling manifestation. I was going to switch switch up the wording a little bit. So instead I wrote down design contract jobs flow to me readily and effortlessly.

The second sentence was companies desire me, offering competitive pay to bring me on every day. And then the last sentence was I thank the universe for reminding me of my worth so I can reach my full potential. I did that on Monday Tuesday. I write it again. That day.

I get a message on LinkedIn. It's from a girl I went to college with that I haven't seen since graduation. I graduated in twenty nineteen. I have not seen this girl. I have not talked to her.

I haven't she has some post on social media. I haven't thought about her in ages. She reaches out to me and she's like, Hey, how's it going so crazy? Couple of years and I'm just no. God, I would be I would be hilarious.

That's what I was waiting for. That would have been really funny. But now I'm gonna do your makeup for you for free. And then I was the Avon party at your parents' house. I could see it in hindsight, it's totally curved.

I was waiting forward like someone you had heard from in a while, you know. Okay. But so she went to school for graphic design. I went to school for industrial I saw her quite a bit. Our paths crossed a lot.

She was also dating a girl in the industrial design program, so I saw her because of that quite a bit too. Um And as Chris knows, I've been taking on more graphic design opportunities than industrial design opportunities. And so she reached out to me, and she was just asking out things when like how things are going and what I've been up to, And so I told her, like, I've taken on like one or two freelance things and I'm working with a startup, but there's no money in it right now. It's on a volunteer basis. But I mean other wise things are going pretty well with equity.

It's called working for free. Yeah, it hurts, but it's for good. Cause sure, that's what they all say. You're a nonprofit, right our Yours is kind of more a nonprofit. Uh.

I wouldn't say that, but I don't. I mean for good in the world. It'll bring about some some positive change if it, if it gets traction, I think, um, but maybe one day I'll talk about that. I don't think it's very scary stories we tells. I think you startup is scary, but not for the reasons you would think.

I have stories to tell, but it would not be this podcast yet. And I'm sure you have some stories you could tell too. But but so anyway, this girl reaches out to me. I tell her, you know, but I'm open to stuff, and she says, wow, crazy that you said that. My company is actually looking for somebody to bring on as a graphic designer that I would be working with.

And you came to mind. And I'm just sitting here like, oh, so I click on her profile. What company is she working for? Oh? You know?

Microsoft? Oh? No way, really, I sho you know, shine you later. I'll show you later. So I'm just like, when did this work?

Like a week this happened literally a week ago, quiet less than a week ago. So this this happened, and I'm just like, I have not thought about her. She has not thought about me. She she had other people in her program who went for graphic design. Why was I the first one?

Why webs in a completely different program in like five to ten years. When you guys are like immensely successful at your job together, you can ask her. Then you can ask her. But don't ask her now, Oh oh god, no you do want to ask though. Well, what I then said, it has to be that that that it has to be scratched.

What I will say, because again I like being fully transparent here whenever I talk about this stuff. She told me that she's not the one in charge of hiring. She just wanted to push my name forward. She likes working with me. Sure, um, and so it's really up to her higher ups.

I'm waiting to hear back. As I said, it has been less little week. But that being said, something that I am learning, and this trusts me, this is far from from the end. But something that I'm currently learning is that the universe will show you things and depending on how you respond to them. So if I am like, oh my god, this is it, and again all eggs in one basket.

I could see the universe saying like, Okay, You're not ready for this, right, And so I'm going into this. Like I said in my manifestation, contract jobs flow to me readily and effortlessly. I'm just going to say, even if this one doesn't work out, this was a great networking opportunity. And Hey, I connected with this girl and I can rekindle a friendship and I can benefit that way. Would it be incredible if I can work with her at Microsoft?

That would be fucking insane and I would love that and I bet it pays well. But if it doesn't happen, I'm not going to go back into old habits. So that was that. I also want to say the night before when I was like online and I'm on LinkedIn and I'm on Indeed and I'm applying, I came across a post. This was the previous night.

I came across a post on LinkedIn from some guy who like a creative director at his company, a company I've never heard of. They're like a marketing agency, and the post was like, we're looking for new people to bring on, designers, etc. And I'm like, I'm here to shoot my shot. Basically, what I gathered from my insights is the well known phrase you miss one hundred percent of the shots you don't take, which it has been said a million times, but I mean there is truth to it. So I said, I'm gonna I'm gonna message him.

I'm just gonna message him. It can't hurt. It can't hurt, and I'm in a much better pet space. This would have been a terrifying task to me three weeks ago, because all I could think about three weeks ago is that, who the fuck am I to reach out to? These people?

Who the fuck am I like? I'm not, I'm nobody like, And that's all I could think about. I think everybody with anxiety and imposter syndrome can relate. But you know, I'm reinvigorated. I'd click on his profile.

Ah damn, it's locked. You can only message him if you're connected with him. You know what, I'll send him. A connection can't fucking hurt. You know, it's less effort than messaging him.

Click. I stopped thinking about it. Fast forward to the night after I had this incredible conversation with my friend and old friend. I'm now talking about eleven twenty PM. I get an email from LinkedIn blank has accepted your connection.

Oh my god, that's great. I'll send him. Oh, he sent me a message. I'm going to read you know what. I'm going to read the message to you.

It was one thing to like, you know, get reached out to by a friend and all of that. I'm going to read this one to you. And again, this was in the same night. I had not messaged him. All I did was send him a request.

He reaches out and he says, Hi, Emma, I came across your profile and I saw you were open to work, so I thought i'd connect. We have quite a bit of design work as well as significant project management needs. Are you looking for opportunities? Thanks? Wow.

Well, as a matter of fact, two things, when I tell you I have been stagnant. Now, this isn't applications. This isn't just like I finally started applying and things are coming my way. This is two people that I have. One I had not talked to in three years more time is an illusion.

And then this other person and then this other person who I've never even spoken to. All I did was click one little button on LinkedIn that said connect. That's at two in one day after I switched my tune with a manifestation. This was insane to me. That's when I messaged you and I was like, Chris, there's some crazy things happening right now.

We got to talk about it. Oh my god. Continuing forward, I have set up two interviews for other job applications. You know how long it's been since I've had an interview. It's been a fucking long time.

It's been a hell of a fucking long time. Things are things are just all of a sudden popping up, and it's getting to like, especially when I got those two things in the one day. At that moment, I literally texted to my boyfriend, manifestation is real. It's real. It's one hundred and ten percent real.

It's real. And he's like, oh, I'm so happy for you, and I said, no, same, manifestation is real right now. Likedate me, validate me. I mean, I'm I'm a girlfriend, of course. But so we'll stop here because the in terms of my story will take a slight break for you to ask some questions.

And then I have one thing that I think is just funny that sort of as a follow up to it, happened today. It was really funny. Oh I tell you about that's in the same thing. So I guess, I guess. My question is what do you attribute it to?

That's a great question. I don't fucking know like it. It is a comment. Like I said before, it is a combination of you have to be willing to put in the work, and I think that goes with everything manifestation, whether you believe in it or not. Everybody who does manifestation that it is successful for from what I have seen, are people that also put in the work.

You know, there are people that manifest you know, getting three hundred thousand subscribers on YouTube. But it's not like they just posted one video and waited. They posted content and content and content, but then they get the good thing that they, you know, asked for. So you can attribute that to luck coincidence. I have, and I sometimes I still do.

But I think personally, especially because especially with the friend who reached out to me, that I can't explain there is no reason why. A day after that, I finally switched my tune with all of this that I finally feel like I'm on the right track. There is no reason for her to have reached out to me absolutely no reason. Like I said, I have not talked to her in years. I haven't liked something on her Instagram.

I haven't, Like there's been no communication. Why now do you want to say it's just a crazy coincidence. I mean, sure, but what is a coincidence? Like, wow, that's what I mean, And now you really acid sidences. At this point, I'm starting to wonder if the whole phrase like there's no such thing as coincidences or whatever.

I'm starting to feel more of that. And like I said a year ago, total opposite, total opposite. It's so hard for me to still feel skeptical as I've slowly been building up proof for myself firsthand, Like it's not just this one thing, right, No, No, I know all the terror readings that I've done that have been spot on, that I've like gotten like I've made people cry, like which isn't not an accomplishment, but like a certain co host of mine left for a while from this show because of a terror reading you gave it. Oops. I mean, I'm not blaming you, but to your point, I mean, realistically, here, the reality of all of this really boils down to a couple a couple things, A the idea that somehow the usage of our brains and I guess inner will can somehow shape the world around us, because like, what is it?

Like what is it? What? What? What is it that's uh what what is it that is shaping this world around us? And we don't know what it is?

Some kind of energy? But you know, I don't what's a what's a coincidence? Are there any Is there such a thing as coincidence? I guess right, I mean it's a it's a philosophy question. You could debate that for for years.

What do you mean coincidences? I I wish I had an answer as of right now, like in this moment, just based off of everything I've been doing. If I had to like give a definition just based off of my experiences recently, I would say a coincidence, I say in air quotes, as if the audience can see um that whatever force, whether you want to call it spirit guides or your higher self or the universe. I think the universe is simply responding to the energy that I've put out that is called the law of attraction. You know, you can attribute that to so many things, like if You're an anxious, depressed mess and everything around you and all you do is think poorly of yourself.

You could say, like, well, it's hard for you to have good things come to you because you're not taking care of yourself. But like, at the same time, this sort of this sort of tells people, like if you were to start changing how you view certain things, you might be able to welcome things into your life subconsciously. You know, if you're struggling to find a good relationship because you don't think you're worthy deep down, you have self worth issues, you have attachment issues. You think that no person will love you better than the abuse that you've endured before. How will the universe give you something better if you just keep telling it that this is all you deserve, right, And that's what it really argues.

And the moment that you're able to start welcoming the positivity but like actually feel it and like actually embody it, Like I had been trying like weeks before this, Like I said this the company that I that I was trying for, that I was talking about in my first round, that I was like eggs all in one basket. This is the one I emailed them twice. I like made a a graphically designed header. I reached out to them on like multiple platforms. I followed their Instagram with my business personal Instagram.

I DMed them. I like, I did everything. I hadn't heard a single thing, nothing Like I didn't even exist to them. The moment I change from that toxic mindset of it has to be them too. I know the universe will give me what I need.

I am open to it and I'm ready for it. That's when I get shit what like and it's still baffling to me, And I'm not going to sit here and pretend like I'm a guru. There are people on YouTube that could tell you a lot more about the stuff than I can, and I've been learning from that. But like, uh, like, there was one that said, like, uh, here's one crazy thing that you'll notice if your manifestations are working, and you know, like click baity titles like that, but there was something in there that stuck out to me when I was when I got that message from my friend from college I had, I clicked on her profile and I was like wow, Microsoft, and then I was like, oh, I remember her girlfriend. I wonder what she's up to and I clicked on her profile and I'm pretty sure it said like like something with Disney.

And I sat there for a second and I'm not gonna lie intrusive thought. Wow, yeah, okay, great she's working at Disney. Awesome, Like I wish. I wish that were me. You know, I think a lot of us can understand that.

And I stopped myself and took a breath, and I said, I can acknowledge that that is an intrusive thought. That is not a thought I need to embody. I can respect the thought that I had. I can take a second to acknowledge it, to feel it, to say that is a valid thing, and I can let it go. And so I took a second, I did what I needed to do, and then I let it go.

And then I said, you know what, I'm really happy for her, good for her, honestly, good for her. I harbor no will. If I harbor no ill will towards her. There is enough to go around for everybody. I'm happy for her.

And then later on I watched this video that was like crazy things that you'll notice if you start to see other like other people getting the thing that you want, that's a good sign that your manifestations are coming to you, like if you start to and like, if you respond to it negatively, the universe will know that you're not ready. If you respond to it positively, the universe will know that you're ready. Interesting, Like it's small positive attraction exactly, And it's just all this is. I mean, lavea, is it that simple? Cannot really have it all?

And that's what it really comes down to. And that's what I've been That's what I've been trying to answer for myself because like, if that is the case, I could have been manifesting the life of my dreams ten years ago. Sure, but I'm not. Like I'm doing it now. I'm making up for lost time.

And like if in five years, like you see me in like the penthouse of my dreams, like owning like ten cats, like you'll know that I that I've made it. She's made in ladies in general, I've made it the penthouse of her dreams with ten ten cats, count them one through ten. Um. You know, I wonder though, because what do you say the person who does all this and nothing happens. Yeah, And that's a great question, And I don't want to sit here and say like that means you're not embodying like the high vibration, but the I mean that is the first thing that you would think of.

If they were genuinely asking why is it's not working for me? I would probably run through them like do you actually believe the stuff that you're saying, right, that's a big part of it, and say it with conviction, yes or no. And if you are saying it with conviction, do you genuinely believe it? Because you do have to believe it, you have to like and that I'm just saying it. And that's why I've just been like I've really had to shed the toxic mindset that I've had.

I've had to say like, yeah, shit has sucked for me in the past, that's okay. I can move forward. That my past does not define my presence and it definitely does not define my future. That doesn't mean it didn't happen, but it doesn't mean I have to sit here and still feel the negativity from that. And like I said three weeks ago, suffering from loads of imposter syndrome, and I still feel it, I still battle it, but I can acknowledge that it isn't the truth.

I can say I'm feeling these feelings and those feelings are valid, and I can recognize that and I can understand that. But just because I don't necessarily always feel worse fit, that does not mean that I'm not worth it. And that's how you can sit with yourself and you can rationalize this stuff. And if you can honestly say, like, yeah, I know my brain chemicals are telling me one thing, right that being said, that doesn't mean it's the truth. Sometimes it can feel that way, but that doesn't mean it is the truth.

And working with yourself on that, Like obviously you can't change if you have a mental health issue. There's only so much you can do with positive thinking. And like I don't want to sit here and be like, oh my god, man, if that's the life of your dreams, just like fucking smile and go out there and do it. Like it is a form of therapy, right, I feel better because it quite literally is meditation. It is sitting with yourself and thinking your thoughts, and that's it.

Like tarot is meditation for me. I ask myself questions and I pull carts and I think about those thoughts and I rationalize them. For myself, like that is meditation for me. There's a lot of ways to meditate. That is what works for me.

Sitting and in utter silence doing absolutely nothing doesn't do too much for me. But maybe if I'm sitting with my crystals and I'm thinking about my intentions and thinking about how I feel about those intentions and how happy I would be if those intentions came true, like that for me works personally. If somebody is struggling, I think what it comes down to, from at least in my experience where I'm at right now, is understanding that just because if you're not getting the thing that you think you want, doesn't mean that good things will not be coming to you. I started writing down like little extra sentences like pep talks in my notes, So like the one that I wrote today is whatever happens, happens if it doesn't come, that means there's something better, other things like interesting, and then you can start.

You can also say it's very similar to like when one door closes, another one opens. A lot of the phrases that you have heard, I mean, however you want to you know, refinish them, reskin them, you know, in different tones and whatever makes them a sense to you. Like there is one that I heard the other day that like really resonated with me. That was like whatever is watered grows. And I'm sure that that has been said a million times in a million ways, but I liked that way.

I liked that way that that person said it, which is basically like, whatever you put effort into is what will happen for you. And I'm pretty sure it's basically a reskinned version of you miss one hundred percent of the shots you don't take, all the flowers that you don't water will die, like right, it's the same shit. But I liked that one and I meditated on that one. Well, that's the thing. I mean, words have a look as people who talk, as you know storytellers, words have meaning, words have power, words have power.

I mean you found with hypnosis, words have power, like I wouldn't have been able to do what I did for you that night without the correct wording, right exactly. And if you if you can believe that hypnosis is a thing and that we're able to hack our brains or someone else can hack our brains through the use of words, then why can't you believe that you could hack the world around you. The advice that I want to I mean, I agre's not what this is is is hacking the world around you like you're hacking your quite well, quite literally, quite literally the advice that I have for people that are like I could try it, but I don't know. It can't hurt it literally cannot like literally if nothing came from any of this.

As I said before, I have a bunch of pretty rocks. I have a lot of pretty cards. They're fun to pull out at parties. And I made some stronger connections with friends because I do readings, and I feel better about myself because I've been meditating, like there is nothing to lose from experimenting. I had to shed the whole like, oh, I feel dumb, I feel silly, I feel stupid, like I'm trying to get I'm trying to get my boyfriend into it.

Like I bought him like two crystals on Valentine's Day and I printed out like intentions that I created for him, and one of them was like a little rose Quart's heart. I think he has some self esteem issues. I think we all do, but I think for him, one of the reasons why, you know, if we're going to go on the path of manifestation. He doesn't think very highly of himself, and that might be why he's not getting opportunities, and that might be why he can't find a place to move into. So I gave him a rose Quart's heart and on and like the little manifestation that I wrote is like basically it says something on the lines stuff like I am worthy of love, I am worthy of good things, I'm kind to myself.

And I asked him so like about a month later, I'm like, hey, so have you been doing your intentions? Have you been working with the crystal I bought you? And he's like, yeah, no, I've held it like every morning. And I'm like what about the intention And he's like I look at it and I'm like, well, how do you feel about it? And he's like I don't know, and I'm like, go grab it.

So he grabs it and I'm sitting with him and I'm like, okay, could why don't you read it? And he sort of sits there for a while and I'm like can you can you say it? And he's like, I feel I feel weird, and I'm like, you can't you can't say that you're worthy of love and that you're worthy of good things and that you're kind to yourself. That's hard for you to say. And I mean not like in a obviously.

I wasn't like, oh my god, that's hard for you to say. It was more of a very gentle like is this actually like difficult for right right? Yeah? And he was like, I guess so, and I'm like, I'll say it first, so like I read it out confidently, and I'm like, I am worthy of love, I am worthy of good things, I am kind to myself. A matter of fact, plain is day.

I believe that. I do believe that right yere right now. I believe that. On my worst days I might not believe it as much, but in my clarity on a good day, I believe that with full conviction. And I sat there and I looked at him, I'm like, now you and he really struggled.

He really struggled, and I understand. Sometimes, Like when I first was dealing with self esteem issues, a friend of mine was like, you know, whenever you look in the mirror, rather than seeing something bad about yourself, like say like one thing that's good about yourself, or just saying like I look cute today, like out loud, just once. Do you know how dumb I felt like looking at my looking at myself in the mirrors like an inksty teen and being like, oh, but I don't look cute. This is so dumb and I hate myself and this is stupid. Like I get it, I've been there, But like when I finally started doing it, after a while, it stopped feeling stupid, and then it stopped feeling silly, and then I felt kind of neutral, and then I started feeling pretty okay, and then I actually started sort of believing it and like it.

And it just goes in that direction. And so I told him once he finally was able to read it once and like I asked him to read it like one or two more times. Now that he finally said it, he broke the ice for himself, and I said, if you can hold this crystal and you can say this one little phrase to yourself five times every morning, I promise you you will start to feel differently about yourself. I promise you. It might take time.

I know it'll feel silly at the beginning. I know you'll feel dumb at first, but I promise you. There is no reason to feel stupid about this. There is no there is no reason for you to sit there and feel like you don't deserve to say those words, like Chris, can you say that? Like if I type that for you, I want you to recite this shit because I think it's important.

I'm gonna type it into the chat so you don't have to recide after me, like it's an oath. I think that's weird. I mean, I'm you know, I'm not one of those people that has a hard time with this, but I was at one point in my life. It didn't take me as long as it's taken others. You know, I am worthy of love, I am worthy of good things, and I am kind to myself.

It's not hard. Yeah, yeah, it is hard. I mean, yeah, of course it is at first and for the first like twenty times, the first thirty times. It depends. For some people, it might be hard for the first one hundred times.

For some people it might be hard the first one time, and then they say it, they clear the air, and then you know, it gets easier. I encourage our listeners that are struggling with self esteem that if the idea of saying that phrase is hard for you, don't run away from it. That means something that is telling, that is incredibly telling. The same way the fact that my boyfriend to me in a room with just the two of us, I have been dating this incredible person for over two years. There is like not a secret to be had.

He can tell me anything, and he struggled saying that one tiny little phrase with me hugging him and comforting him like after I did it first, like that told me something that broke my heart. To be completely honest, that this person that I revere so much, that I look up to in so many ways, that I care so deeply about, couldn't say that for himself. It broke my heart. And I sat with him until he could do it because it was that important to me. If this is something that you guys struggle with, any of you, I highly encourage you to try saying it out loud, and if you really struggle, keep trying.

Take as much time as you need. But if you can say this phrase to yourself at least once every day, you will feel differently again. I am worthy of love, I am worthy of good things. I am kind to myself. If you can say that with conviction, I think things will turn around for you.

And it goes hand in hand with manifestation. I think the fact that my boyfriend could not say this is very telling as to why he is unable to get a job that he likes and he is unable to move out. I think there are blockages and whether you think that's spiritual or not. Like you could say, like, yeah, he's just not applying for the right stuff because he doesn't think he's worthy. You could say he's not looking at the right houses because he doesn't think he can afford it, or he deserves something that nice.

Like you can look at it and psychologically you can look at it. Spiritually, it doesn't matter to me there you can look at it as a combination of the two. I think it is a combination of the two. Personally, like the jobs that I'm applying to now, I feel a lot different about the jobs that I'm applying to now because I feel better about myself and the way that I carry myself in conversations with professionals. You know a lot of that stuff.

I think it goes hand in hand and when it comes to manifestation, like I said, it's important to know that it can't work for you if you do not believe that the things you are asking for that you deserve, that you are ready for. That's the big thing. So, like said, there is no harm in this because at the end of the day, you're just saying a bunch of nice shit to yourself. There is no harm in that. There's no reason to feel stupid about that.

That's not a waste of time. And I know my boyfriend doesn't believe a manifestation. Like I said, I jokingly was like, say it, say it's real, tell me it's real. But right now, it's not about that. I hope he holds that little crystal heart, looks at it and says, my loving girlfriend bought that for me, And I hope he remembers that when he looks at it, and he's able to say something nice to himself, and if that's all he gets out of it, that is enough for me.

Yeah, that's enough for me. So that's like the big stuff. That being said, I do want to sort of shift into a funny thing that happened today in regards to an interview that I had. So I had an interview that was scheduled today at three pm scheduled with you know, some design company. They were advertising like twenty five to fifty dollars an hour, fucking like, hell yeah, right, that's in the twenty five is the low end, right?

Hell yeah. So, like I'm preparing and I'm sure it's going to be a video call, and I do my hair and I put on, you know, a blazer wearing like leggings underneath. She doesn't have to know, and she tells me, like earlier, like I will give you the link at your scheduled time. Great, it's three emails open, waiting for the link, waiting for the link. I'm waiting for the link.

I'm gonna message her. I email her, Hey, are we still on for three? I have yet to receive a link. Nothing. It's now about three ten, three twelve.

Finally an email. Oh my god, click, I'm going to read this. Read this team. This is so weird. I had many existential crisis about this earlier.

It is really weird. She William also, and she says, hello, Emma, thank you for completing the screening test interview questions. I acknowledge the receipt of your answers. Our team will review your answers and will forward them to the hiring board for their decision, and I will get back to you with feedback from the board's decision in about a couple of hours. This is going to be strictly an online remote et cetera, et cetera.

She finishes up with, UM, stand by while I forward your interview answers to the hiring board. I'm sitting here, like, but I need interview, interview. I'm sitting here, all businessed up, ready to introduce myself to this lady. Ready for the screening, ready for the interview. I'm here for it.

I know what I'm gonna say. And fifteen minutes after three, I get this email thank you for complaining the interview. So I'm sitting here and I'm like, do I do I email back? Do I say like there's been a mistake? Do I just let it ride?

Do I just let it ride? Like? And I'm sitting here like, is the universe placing this into my lap? Like you don't even have to fucking interview? Like we got you girl, Like I wasn't shocked to.

I'm sitting I'm waiting, and I'm like, I'm afraid to leave my computer like, I'm like, I don't want to walk away from my email because I don't know if I'm gonna have this fucking interview or not. And finally I hear my dad walk up the stairs because he was downstairs in his office. I'm like, Dad, Dad, I need you. I'm like very confused. And he reads the email and he's like what it I'm no, and he's like that's odd.

I'm no, and he's like, you should you should email and say that there's been a misunderstanding or something like you should let her know. And I'm like, I don't know. I don't know. So I screenshot it to my boyfriend. I'm like, me, what the fuck?

What do I do? He's working, so obviously he's not responding immediately. In the meantime, I my mom walks by. I asked her and she's like, oh, just let it ride, just see what happens. My dad, on the other hand, was like, you should probably email.

I'm conflicted. I pull out my terror. I text me my friend. I'm like, if my terror says like sometimes just accept what the universe has put into your lap, then I was like, all right, no email, definitely no email. Instead a card came out that was basically like you need to just authentically like be you and communicate and shit like that.

And I was like, all right, I guess that means I have to email. So I give the So I do the email. I'm like, hey, so I think there's been a misunderstanding. I have yet to interview with you. That being said, I would be happy to read sketchule.

Please let me know, thank you, et cetera. Blink, I haven't heard a word, and now I'm just sitting here like, yike, do I is this a red fluck? Is that? Like? What are you?

What are you think? Like this this happened today? I was joking that, like I must be from a separate timeline. So I switched places with the Emma and this timeline that was who actually had the interview at two o'clock. I would say, let it ride for a while and see what happens.

Right, got my squeaky ash chair, But uh no, Like seriously, I'm just sitting here like, am I just gonna get a job offer, like an actual job offer for doing fucking nothing? If that's the I mean, I don't want to say nothing. I did an application, I did all the emailing and follow up that I needed to do to set up the interview. It wasn't nothing, but like, like I'm joking with my parents all day, They're just like that she didn't even need to interview you. They just liked they just loved you.

They didn't even need to talk to you, they just knew. And I'm like, yeah, okay, uh. I think it will be really funny if I wind up getting an actual job offer and I never have to do an interview. Because if that is the case, I fully believe the universe has plopped something into my lap and I will take it, no questions asked, unless if it turns out to be like a phishing scheme, and then I'll run. But what But like, the weird thing is it's all like I email her saying like is there a link?

I'm waiting for a link, and she emails my email responding to that email, thank you for your interview. So she's probably just gonna like fucking ghost me. But I have no idea what to tell you on that one. So let me tell you manifestation wise, this is the proper way to mentally respond to this. Whatever happens happens.

If I'm given something, I will be grateful for it. That is the proper response. Otherwise I will continue going forward. That means that this opportunity was not meant for me. There is a better opportunity waiting.

That is the proper way, manifestation wise, to respond to this situation, I first had to have a mental breakdown and then rationalized it as if I was timeline hopping or multiverse hopping. And like I said, I switched places with the Emma who had an incredible interview at two o'clock. She is over in the universe waiting for an email that never comes. I mean, that's how I've had to rationalize it to myself to get me through today, because I am baffled and bewildered. Maybe that's what it is.

Maybe that's what it is. I don't know. That's strange. So I feel like next time we meet, I'll have to update on whether or not she ever responded, whether or not I got job from you. I'll be very curious.

Again. You know, the manifestation stuff is interesting, you know, I'm yeah, it's it's interesting. Again, I don't I never know with this kind of stuff, you know, where where I'm going to come down on it and where I'm gonna come down on a story like this one. But it's it's interesting because again, for me, I'm inclined to believe it, and I'm inclined to believe that you have tapped into something. What that is I do not know any more than you do, and I think that that's okay.

It has. It may go by many names, as we say, it may be one thing to me and you, one thing to you, and one thing to someone else, and one thing million people on this planet will say, oh, that's God right, and that's fine. I Some people that you know that are into witchcraft will say it's their particular God or godess. People that are into spirituality will say spirit guides. Certain religious people might say angels.

Like I don't care what you want to call it. What I've been calling it is the universe. It made the most sense to me more recently, after getting a card that basically said like look for little signs and stuff like that, I started leaning more into the idea of spirit guides. I'm going to let you know how that goes. I was watching one video that said, like, you need to introduce yourself to your spirit guides and they will introduce themselves to you and like ask them for like a specific sign and keep an eye out for that sign.

And that's how you know that they're communicating with like things like that, and like there are some people that are like ask your spirit guides for their names. They have names, and the first thing that comes to mind is their name. And like so since like I have like a candle, there's also like scandle like flame scrying that you can do as well, and like so you can look at like how a flame reacts in a room like without a draft or you know, and like just see like how a flame reacts to questions that you ask. And like at one point during the full moon, when I was was it the no, I think it was a reading, I had another night and I lit my candle. This was within like the past ten days, and at one point I was like, flicker if you're with me, and it like it took like two seconds and it started like flickering, and then like it kind of like stopped, and like I tried it again like later because it hadn't flickered, and then I was like mine, flicker in that candle again from me, and it took like a couple of seconds and I was like oh, and then it started.

I was like cool, thanks, because like it's it's scary for me. Arthur who does witchcraft will be like hell yeah, the morrigan right here in the room with me, thanks for making my candle burned three inches tall, Like I'm Arthur gets some like big ass flames. Sure, apparently that's the thing in witchcraft. But yeah, like for me, a lot of it is scary, and I think the reason why, so why I don't feel as connected to my spirit guides, if that is who is with me, it's because I do still have that innate fear and they don't want to reveal themselves to me if I'm just gonna be like fucking terrified that there's like I'm haunted or some shit. So, like, you can rationalize this in a lot of ways if you've believed in spirit guides in stay one and that shit doesn't bother you, and you ask them, you know, reveal yourselves, and they might be a lot more readily available than mine are.

But I think that's because I'm a very skittish person who was you know, extremely skeptical and then being confronted with proof that's uncanny, is quite literally scary for me. Like I told Arthur, like all the time when he was telling me about like his encounters and like stuff that he's witnessed, and I'm just like, I don't know how you're a sane human being who can have a conversation with me like I would be, but yet paranoid, paranoid for the rest of my fucking life. But yet here we are, I know. But no, it's just this has been a wild ride and it's not slowing down, and I'm going to keep writing it. I'm gonna keep like doing what I'm doing.

And like I said, no harm, no foul, I'm feeling better and that's what matters. And like there's no like negative thing about this. I'm not like doing something that is harmful to me in the long run. I'm not bringing on practices that are like crutches. Like everything is coming from me.

It doesn't matter how that happens to look on the outside. So somebody might see me like writing the same sentence a million times in a journal and holding a rock with my eyes closed for ten minutes, or staring at a flame for half an hour, like and people might look at that and be like, that's really weird. But you know, I'm doing better. I really am. And if it was something along the lines of like things were sort of like going my way serendipitously, but I wasn't putting the work in and I just sort of assumed that things would just come naturally to me because it did it once or twice.

And then I stopped and I was just like, but everybody should be manifesting and like this is great, and like things will come to me. And then like I never get a job because I never apply, you know, like then it would be different. But like I said, if you're putting it in the work, this is just an ad on. I'd like to think of it as like I said, like the universe just has your back. Like there's luck, there's doing things and putting in the work and the hard work and getting good things out of that.

And then there's that plus having somebody pulling the strings in the background being like yo, girl, I got you. This one's for you, like and that's really all it comes down to. And whether you believe it or not, like I said, there's still a part of me, like I think I said, like, so twenty five percent, like a year ago, twenty five percent on like skept Like I was, uh, twenty five percent belief, seventy five skeptic right like now I'm like a solid like eighty eight percent belief. That is a big jump in a year. And like you can listen to like podcasts that I did on strange Strange beliefs that I have like on on YouTube, and you can like look into that because like all of that was basically recorded before I really got into this stuff.

You will hear the difference. I always used suspension of disbelief when I had these conversations with people, and especially with Arthur, just because I struggled to believe it, I still responded in a way that like, like I said, I fully believed that nobody was lying to me. I didn't go in with that like parent noia um, I was open minded. But like you will hear a difference in like the I don't know too, Like no, I'm from kind of kind of star hating to gather some evidence here, and I encourage you guys to do the same, Like I said, can't hurt get some pretty rocks, get some pretty carts, do a party trick or two like I mean again, or read books. I mean the same thing.

Right, Oh yeah, something to quiet for a while, to give yourself a moment of reflection, whatever that may be. That's something you've been working on. So I know, I know the feeling and I and again, like you said, I mean, I don't know what it is, but if it's a coincidence, it's a hell of a coincidence. That's and that's honestly what I keep saying. Like I haven't told my dad about any of this.

He's just happy when I tell him, yeah, I've an interview scheduled, and yeah, like, oh my god. This person reached out to me on LinkedIn in his mind and he was a man of logic to a fault. But you know it could as to him. He's successful for it, so I'm happy for him. But you know, when I told him about like these two things happening in one day, and he was just like, see, look at what happens when you put yourself out there and you start applying.

And I was like, and I mean, like it is it's a combination of that. But like again, I hadn't talked to this girl. It's not nerus, it's not that. So I was just you know, I was just like, I'm not gonna say like, actually just say yes. This was actually that this was pretty uncanny.

I would say, it's actually quite spiritual. Like I wasn't going to go easier to just say yes Eva, oh yeah, let them let them feel like, yeah, you're right, I did. That's what it was. Yeah, Dad, seriously, I really, like I said, I I always appreciated the advice. Thanks, that's it.

Yeah, man, you're right, that's a that's a good one. This was a good episode. You weren't kidding, thank you. I, like I said, A lot has happened in a very short amount of time. Apparently, again, I don't know what to attribute it to.

But for me, if you've been doing all this in the last couple months and and you're seeing some seeing some kind of I guess benefit and moving in the right direction is better than moving in the wrong direction. There has been a positive change of some sort. And I encourage listeners to come to their own conclusions and to ask questions and to look into stuff like on their own, Like I am just one person with experiences. I promise that none of this is embellishment. Everything that I've said has happened in the order of which I've said it.

I go in. When I was doing my podcast, this was very important to me because what I wanted to do is get to the bottom of shit, and like that's if you're listening for that reason. I don't have an answer, but I feel like I'm getting pretty damn close to one. When that happens, you guys will be the first to know. I don't think you'll get an answer, but again, you'll maybe have a clearer head about it.

I don't know, maybe you will. I don't know. If I'm out here manifesting, I'll never get an answer. Then how the fuck am I supposed to get any answer? Chris?

I don't disagree with you there. Wow, Chris, it sounds like you have some blockages and yeah yeah yeah, yeah, yeah yeah yeah, Well maybe I what about I don't know what about it? Emma, No, this is this was great. This was basically all I got Manifestations Part two, and there will most likely be a part three, probably not for like another month or so three months. Two months been like two months and they were almost three, so I can see there being this like being a continued check in every so often.

This sort of feels like keep doing it. Yeah, it feels like a continuation of my podcast in a sense, except instead of me asking Arthur questions, it's just me telling you shit, this happening to me for a change, which is pretty fucking cool. Well, yeah, I mean again, and especially if you're manifesting it. So, I mean, you know, I haven't even really talked to Arthur about this stuff because we haven't had the chance. I need to tell him what's been going on.

Curious what Arthur's take would be, because I will let you know. Yeah, again, what he what he does is different, but it could be the same. I'd like to think that it's yeah, basically, but like it comes from the same place. It's a lot of the same stuff. You could say that writing in my journal is a form of casting a spell.

Yeah, I'm sure that there are many spells that require you writing in a journal. I know manifestations are a part of witchcraft. I know candles, I know crystals, all of that. I mean, if you want to look at it as offerings, you can look at it as offerings. I have partaken in helping Arthur with the Feast of the Morgan, especially like we were when I visited him earlier this year during the Feast of the Morrigan, Like I went out in the fucking cold at night and we buried fucking scones in the next to the stream, like because we were offering food to the earth for the Morigan.

Like I mean, I was just there to help. I help bake the scones. It kind of broke my heart to bury them in the ground, but I got to eat a few of them well. And like you said, I mean again, know what the energy is that you're tapping into for sure. And I, especially when I was hearing a lot of stories about the Morgan from Arthur's perspective and everything, which is just his personal goddess, the one that he's been working with um for quite a couple of years now, every so often I would just say like, hey, the Morrigan, thanks for looking out from my friend.

It's pretty cool of you. And like whenever I would talk about her, I always made sure to talk in a respectful way. Like I didn't. I didn't really The only jokes that I ever made were like, uh, when Arthur would tell me, like something that she helped with and I'd be like, Wow, she's basically like a really cool biker mom. Like that's the vibe I'm getting.

Like, but I wouldn't like nothing was ever said in in a way that would like discount what he has been doing. And also like I kept like that goddess is the last goddess I want to be on their shit list, the goddess of war. Yeah. No, yeah, I'm with you. If you're talking about the Morrigan, always always be respectful.

She deserves it. But again, I mean, like you said, it's you know, the this could all be the same thing, just manifesting is different. God could be like all the gods and goddesses Like I don't. If you want to believe that Jesus was the Messiah and angels are communicating with you and that's what's doing this, fuck yeah you hell yeah, good for you, there is, as long as your beliefs are not hurting anybody and they are only giving you a net positive. I'm all for it, all for it, no questions asked, you do you well, I'll leave it on this emma, though, that's two pretty big ifs, So sure.

I just I would love to know if other people like who are listening, have done manifestations, what like what their stories are, if this stuff has worked for them, if they have a similar story coming from skepticism to mostly believing in it um and what that was like. Uh but yeah, I that's that's the current update. That's a good update. Thank you. I'm going to continue doing what I'm doing and I will get back to you guys, uh and letting let you know how it goes.

If I'm fucking working at Microsoft, like I'm just saying, somebody's looking out for me. Yeah, no, I'm with there's no way. I don't. I haven't even applied at Microsoft, Like, come on, that's the best kind of job to get the one that you didn't ask. Oh, well, you know it, because that's the one that the universe is said, I picked this one out just for you exactly.

It feels pretty special, right, And like I said, even if I even if I don't get that specific one, the idea of this happening in such an uncanny way is already like enough for me in this moment. That's fair. That's fair, And I'm just going to keep doing my best in shooting my shot. And as I said before, water, what what you water will grow. That's what it comes down to.

Just keep watering the stuff you want to grow. So speaking of things that are growing, Emma, what is uh where could people find you? That makes it sound like I don't know how that makes sense? Your cult online? Yeah?

All right? Where could people go to follow your beliefs? Wow? Yeah? But where could people find you on the internet, Emma?

When you're not here? Sure if you guys, go on to Instagram Strange Beliefs Podcast In our description there is a link tree gives you all the links. As I said, we've been on an indefinite hiatus, but all of our episodes are still up and running. Uh. And you can find the links to all of that right there if you're curious.

Yeah. And as for me, you see stashu dot com. That's my link tree. Go there for my things. Uh.

Reutledge Maggotyodd is always big. Thanks to them for their awesome album artwork. You can find Maggie on Instagram at Maggie Odd. And to our good friend Alex Malnack of Blondo. He provides music for the show and he's on Spotify.

Just search Blondo. Emma, thank you, as always for stopping by saying hi, sharing some interesting exciting stations. Happy to be here, Alex, happy to be here. Yeah, it's hey, manifestations are it's exciting stuff. So yeah, I guess.

On that note, we'll let our good friend, the former host deciding, is mister Tim White lead us out? No mystery is closed to an open mind two